Entry #1
Closing Chapters of the Past
As you grow, the past must go. One of the hardest parts of growing is the fear of losing what you think you need in your life. But the truth is, getting to know our true selves comes with experiences that bring us out of our comfort zone. With that being said, the past has to be left in the past. This goes for not only yourself, but friendships, relationships, and even your job too. The past is meant to serve as a foundation of teaching particular lessons.
If you knew better, you would do better they say, truth is, sometimes even when you know better, you still make mistakes and that’s okay. The past has chased me in so many aspects, but enough is enough. Past people, past lessons, past mistakes, past thought processes no longer serve me and they shouldn’t serve you either. Think of every experience as an opportunity for you to meet a version of yourself that was necessary. If the past comes knocking on your door, it’s to challenge the current version of yourself that you’re working on to see if you’re truly serious about change. What I want for me is to become the best version of myself and that came with letting go of the people, places, and things that I thought I needed to make me feel whole.
Did I want to though? Let go? Not entirely, but truthfully the toughest decisions tend to change your life remarkably. A decision to no longer accept the bare minimum in love led me to meeting the love of my life. A decision to no longer be in a friendship that isolated me from nurturing myself fully led me to truly getting to know myself. All decisions change you and sometimes this is in the most drastic ways…
Past me would be so proud of present me. I am stronger, wiser, and more confident than I’ve ever been. I prayed for this version of myself and it’s remarkable to see her starting to develop in the best ways. Past me was a people pleasure, past me was too insecure to advocate for myself, past me didn’t see the value in myself so I allowed others to treat me however they chose. But not anymore.
I choose love. I choose peace. I choose happiness. I choose to bloom.
